Welcome Julia as She Shares Her Experience With Cutting With All of Us

Hello Everyone! I hope all is well with you! I’ve been busy this last week with Blog Hops and Book Fairs, but I’m back with another teen issue. The issue I’m talking about is Cutting or Self Harm.

According to my research, cutting is on the rise. In fact, the number of children and teenagers who have asked for help after considering hurting themselves with knives or drugs has gone up by two thirds in a year.

Read more from this article here: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-2243369/Worrying-teenage-trend-self-harming-sparks-sharp-increase-calls-Childline.html

I read about this and I wonder how does this happen? How do teens spiral down into this web of hurting themselves to feel better? So, what I did is, I spoke with someone who’s been in that predicament. Please welcome Julia Blakeney. She’s here to share her story on Self Harm.

Welcome Julia!

First a little bit of information. Julia is nineteen years old and a sophomore in college. She’s hoping to transfer to LSU for the next academic year.

This is Julie with her sister. Julie is on the right.

This is Julie with her sister. Julie is on the right.

Julia how did this all start?

It started in high school. I was feeling depressed and my mother, who was in health care at the time, took me to the doctor. He prescribed an anti-depressant (Prozac) and had me speak with a social worker. That worked for a while.

Then the summer after my junior year in high school my brother and my best friend went to boot camp. My brother, who is two years older than me, went into the army. And my best friend, who is one year older than me, went into the Navy. I felt totally alone and I didn’t have anyone to talk to.

So would you say your brother and your friend leaving was a trigger to the cutting behavior?

Yes. I would have to say that. I became angry and felt like I was screwing up all the time. My parents always seemed mad and so did my sister. And I couldn’t talk to my mother when she was angry with me.

Is this when you started cutting yourself?

Yes. It made me feel better to cut myself. It seemed to relieve the pressure. Please understand the cutting is not to get attention like so many people think. I tried to hide it. I would wear bracelets to hide the scars.

Why do you think you started cutting yourself?

I felt angry. Angry at being left behind by my friend and my brother. I also repressed a lot of anger and sadness. I wouldn’t let myself be sad or cry over missing my friend and brother.

Why do you think cutting made you feel better?

I’m not sure why cutting made me feel better. Maybe it was because of the adrenaline or it could be about control. You know, controlling the pain.

Did your Social Worker know?

I stopped going to her at the end of my junior year, so I don’t think so.

How did you stop?

I finally told my mom. And she was really cool. She didn’t yell or scream at me, but she did take away all the sharp objects that I could use to cut myself. I didn’t want to ask for help. My mom had me go back to my therapist and I switched medication. I dropped Prozac and started taking Zoloft. That’s when I stopped cutting.

However, I became anti-social during my senior year. I wasn’t feeling well emotionally and I didn’t want to be around people. I stayed in my room a lot.

Wow. Sounds like you were going through a lot. Can you tell us the warning signs that we should look out for?

Yes. My behavior changed radically. I was happy and outgoing and then I became withdrawn. I was sleeping a lot and that worried my mother. She took me to the doctor because she thought I had Mono.

I was crying a lot and then I shut down my emotions because no one wanted to hear about it. That’s when I started cutting.

Thanks Julia for being brave and sharing your story with us!

Cutting or Self Harm is a sign of emotional distress that young teens can’t articulate into words. According to http://www.mind.org.uk/mental_health_a-z/8006_self-harm  young women are more likely to engage in this type of behavior. For more information on self-harm please click on this link.  http://www.mind.org.uk/mental_health_a-z/8006_self-harm

Thanks Julia for being here today and sharing your story. If you suspect someone you know is engaging in this type of behavior please let an authority figure know, so they can take steps to intervene before it’s too late. Because self harm is the first step toward suicide. Please leave a comment and share your thoughts. If you have a question, speak up and we’ll try and answer it for you! :)

Thanks for reading my post today! :)

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AND THE WINNERS ARE!!

 

The winner for the Children’s Book Giveaway is DOROTHY TEEL! Whoo! Hoo!

She will receive a signed paperback copy of “The Super Spies and the Cat Lady Killer!” Congrats Dorothy!!! :)

 

 

The Winner from the Rachel got the Contract Party is…KAREN ARROWOOD!!!!

She will receive an e-book copy of her choice of one of Rachel’s books and one e-book copy from the Super Spies series! :)

Congrats Karen!!

 

Thanks to everyone who participated in the giveaways! I had a lot of fun doing it and I hope you did too! :)

 

 

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Rachel Got the Contract! It’s a party!

 

******THIS GIVEAWAY IS NOW OVER. WINNERS TO BE ANNOUNCED SHORTLY!***

Hello everyone! I hope all is well with you! Yes… we have another Blog Hop and Giveaway today! My good friend Rachel Van Dyken has just signed a huge NEW YORK CONTRACT for her books “The Bet” and “The Elite”! So we are celebrating with a blog hop party! So come on and help us celebrate!

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Rachel’s first book was published in 2011 and she has become a major success story. Not only is she a bestselling author, she’s a NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLING AUTHOR!!! It just goes to show you if you believe in yourself and stick to your dreams you can achieve them!

Here’s the two books that caught New York’s eye!

“I have a proposition for you…”
Kacey should have run the minute those words left Seattle millionaire Jake Titus’s mouth. Instead, she made a deal with the devil in hopes of putting her past behind her once and for all.
Four days.
She could do four days!
But she wasn’t counting on Jake’s older brother Travis being there to witness their farce of an engagement.
One thing is for certain.
One brother is right for her.
One wants a lifetime.
And one is in league with the devil.
She should have gotten Jake’s signature in blood.

*This is a New Adult Book, blood, violence, cursing, sexual references, and drug use. Not recommended for those under 17*When I won the annual Eagle Elite College Scholarship lottery, I was thrilled. After all, my grandma had just died and I wanted to take care of my aging grandpa — he couldn’t be a farmer in Wyoming forever. And graduating from Eagle Elite meant opportunity.
But I wasn’t counting on meeting Nixon.Nor was I counting on the rules of the Elect.1. Do not touch The Elect.2. Do not look at The Elect.3. Do not speak to The Elect.And worst of all? Don’t discover the secret they hide, because in the end, you may just realize… it’s about you.

Whoo! Hoo! Congrats Rachel! We are all so proud of you! Check out some of her other  books!

Upon a Midnight Dream                 Waltzing with the Wallflower                 The Redemption of Lord Rawlings

The Seduction of Sebastian St. James               An Unlikely Alliance                   Compromising Kessen

To celebrate Rachel’s success everyone who’s participating in the Blog Hop is organizing a giveaway on their blog. So here’s my giveaway. The winner will get one e-book copy of one of Rachel’s books of their choice and one copy of one of the books in The Super Spies series.

How do you enter? You can enter by posting a comment about Rachel. It can be one of your favorite things about her, or maybe what your favorite Rachel Van Dyken book is, or maybe even your favorite character from one of Rachel’s books. This will earn you one entry.

If you tweet or share about the Blog Hop on twitter and/or facebook and copy and paste the tweet or share in the comment section this will count as two entries. Winners will be chosen on the 20th of May. :) Good luck everyone!

Here’s some info about my Super Spies series! They are great tween/teen reads!

The Super Spies and the Cat Lady Killer 500x750This book opens in a small town in Michigan where fifteen-year-old Sarah Cole is stuck spending the summer at her Aunt and Uncle’s with her sister, Lacey. She’s not happy with the situation until she befriends a girl named Jackie. The three girls stumble upon the ruthless murder of a reclusive neighborhood woman. One of the officers investigating the crime believes the girls are responsible for her death. Fearing that this officer will frame them for the murder, the girls organize their own detective squad. They become the Super Spies and start their own fact-finding mission.  The Super Spies can’t understand why anyone would want to murder the “Cat Lady” until they start digging into her past and discover a horrible crime that happened thirty years ago. They uncover a connection between the two crimes and attempt to bring this information to the police, only to be reprimanded for meddling in the inquest. Not only are the girls upset by the admonition, but they also struggle with the fact that their exuberant investigating could provide a legal loophole allowing the killer to go free. To make matters worse, the police don’t even believe them. Frustrated by this turn of events, the Super Spies realize it’s up to them to snare the Cat Lady killer, or die trying…

TheSuperSpiesandtheHighSchoolBomber 500x750This book opens in a small town in Michigan where Sarah and her sister Lacey are now living with their Aunt and Uncle. Still reeling from the fact her parents have disappeared, Sarah starts the school year with her new friend Jackie Jenkins. When Sarah learns the school has been bombed, she’s filled with dread. Uncle Walt is a teacher, and he was in the school when the bomb exploded. Taking matters into her own hands, Sarah decides to search for him. The rest of the Super Spies are right behind her. When a fireman chases them away from the school, Sarah becomes suspicious. She decides to investigate. The FBI arrives on the scene. Sarah realizes this bombing could have even bigger implications. Searching for the bombers, Sarah is introduced to the world of terrorism. She fears that the bombing and her parents’ disappearance are connected and terrorists are involved. To make matters worse, the bombers are determined to finish the job. Can the Super Spies find the bombers before it’s too late?

Here are all the other authors participating in our Blog Hop Party! Stop on by their blogs and check out their giveaways too! :) And thanks for stopping by!

Rachel Van Dyken
2. Kim Bowman
3. Gunnar Grey
4. Ruth J. Hartman
5. Patricia Kiyono
6. Kay Springsteen
7. C.S. Moore
8. Joselyn Vaughn
9. Lynn Spangler
10. Jessie Andersen
11. Calico Daniels
12. Lisa Orchard
13. Wendy Knight
14. Brenda Maxfield
15. Moriah Densley
16. Meg Mims
17. Leah Sanders
18. Kristin Vayden
19. Liz Botts
20. Jennifer Comeaux
21. Heather Gray
22. Catherine Bennett
23. Calle J. Brookes
24. Elaine Cantrell
25. Iris Blobel
26. Jennifer Rae Gravely
27. Kelly Martin
28. Jeff Salter
29. Lindi Peterson
30. Sherry Gloag
31. Tifferz And Her Sisterz Book Review
32. E.A. West
33. Christina Cole – Historical Romance
34. Karen King
35. Vivian Roycroft
36. Cheryl Kay
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Children’s Book Week Giveaway!

*****THIS GIVEAWAY IS OVER. WINNERS TO BE ANNOUNCED SHORTLY!****childrens book week hop 2013
Hello Everyone! I’m participating in the Children’s Book Week Giveaway Hop! See the details below and see how you can enter to win!
Children’s Book Week Giveaway Hop
May 13th – 19th
Hosted by
& I Am A Reader, Not A Writer

What is Children’s Book Week?

Established in 1919, Children’s Book Week is the longest-running literacy initiative in the country. Each year, books for young people and the joy of reading are feted for a full week with author and illustrator appearances, storytelling, parties, and other book-related events at schools, libraries, bookstores, museums, and homes from coast to coast!

For more information please visit: http://www.bookweekonline.com/

Celebrate & Promote Children’s Book Week by taking part in The Children’s Book Week Giveaway Hop.

How can you participate? You can participate by entering to win a signed paperback copy of “The Super Spies and the Cat Lady Killer”!! :)

How do you enter?  You can enter up to six times. You enter by either tweeting about the Super Spies series or posting it on Facebook and copying the tweet or post in the comment section below. You can also tweet or post about the Children’s Book Week Giveaway too! Just remember to copy the tweet or post in the comment section. You can also leave a comment telling me one of your favorite books that you read as a child! :)

I will e-mail the winners on the 20th. :)

You can also enter giveaways on other blogs by clicking on the book in the upper right hand corner and then clicking each link that you see listed, or check out the blog list below!

Here’s the covers and blurbs of my books:

“The Super Spies and the Cat Lady Killer” 

The Super Spies and the Cat Lady Killer 500x750This book opens in a small town in Michigan where fifteen-year-old Sarah Cole is stuck spending the summer at her Aunt and Uncle’s with her sister, Lacey. She’s not happy with the situation until she befriends a girl named Jackie. The three girls stumble upon the ruthless murder of a reclusive neighborhood woman. One of the officers investigating the crime believes the girls are responsible for her death. Fearing that this officer will frame them for the murder, the girls organize their own detective squad. They become the Super Spies and start their own fact-finding mission.  The Super Spies can’t understand why anyone would want to murder the “Cat Lady” until they start digging into her past and discover a horrible crime that happened thirty years ago. They uncover a connection between the two crimes and attempt to bring this information to the police, only to be reprimanded for meddling in the inquest. Not only are the girls upset by the admonition, but they also struggle with the fact that their exuberant investigating could provide a legal loophole allowing the killer to go free. To make matters worse, the police don’t even believe them. Frustrated by this turn of events, the Super Spies realize it’s up to them to snare the Cat Lady killer, or die trying…

“The Super Spies and the High School Bomber”

TheSuperSpiesandtheHighSchoolBomber 500x750This book opens in a small town in Michigan where Sarah and her sister Lacey are now living with their Aunt and Uncle. Still reeling from the fact her parents have disappeared, Sarah starts the school year with her new friend Jackie Jenkins. When Sarah learns the school has been bombed, she’s filled with dread. Uncle Walt is a teacher, and he was in the school when the bomb exploded. Taking matters into her own hands, Sarah decides to search for him. The rest of the Super Spies are right behind her. When a fireman chases them away from the school, Sarah becomes suspicious. She decides to investigate. The FBI arrives on the scene. Sarah realizes this bombing could have even bigger implications. Searching for the bombers, Sarah is introduced to the world of terrorism. She fears that the bombing and her parents’ disappearance are connected and terrorists are involved. To make matters worse, the bombers are determined to finish the job. Can the Super Spies find the bombers before it’s too late?

Thanks for participating! :)

Check out the other Blogs that are hosting giveaways too!

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Check out the New Release “Eternal Immortality”

Hello Everyone! I hope all is well with you! I’ve got a hot new release for you today! It’s a story written by Ella Meddler and K.S. Haigwood! It looks like an awesome read! Check it out!

Eclipse poster Eternal Immortality

NEW RELEASE –
ETERNAL IMMORTALITY
Book 2 in the Eternal Series
 

Eternal Island is heaven on Earth. Love blossoms between witches and vampires, and none are happier than the King and Queen. Shortly after the wedding, the party is interrupted by a desolate plea. A man is in trouble, and soon an army is sent to his rescue — but is he who he claims to be?

Unbeknown to Abe and Ariana, a cauldron of trouble bubbles to the surface and terrible things begin to happen to innocent islanders. Dodging love triangles and intrigue, could the young Queen find the strength necessary to save her kingdom and the world, too? When the King begins to crumble and evil has won, would pure love be enough to save the whole of humanity from destruction?

Read this story with a Tiger’s Eye stone in one hand and a strong faith in your heart. Cross your fingers and toes and hope for a miracle on Evil’s finest winning day.

 

Here’s the buylink if you want to get this awesome book:

http://www.amazon.com/Eternal-Immortality-Book-ebook/dp/B00CPSRWLK/ref=sr_1_2?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1368157271&sr=1-2&keywords=Eternal+Immortality

To find out more about Ella click this link: http://ellamedler.wordpress.com/

To find out more about K.S. Haigwood click this link: http://kshaigwood.blogspot.com/

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Please welcome Su Williams as she shares her Novel “Dream Weaver” with us!

Hello everyone! I hope all is well with you! I’ve got Su Williams here today and she’s telling us a little about herself and her writing process and then we’ve got an excerpt from her novel “Dream Weaver”. Let’s give her a warm welcome!

Take it away Su!

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1)    How long have you been writing, Su?
I’ve written little things most of my life. Poems, short stories, Sunday school lessons…but I never believed I was capable of writing a book until about five years ago. I finished the Twilight Saga and said, ‘I can do that.’ So I did.
 
2)    Where do you get your inspiration to write?
Life. What I write is paranormal, and not like ghosts and poltergeist. My immortals aren’t traceable by electromagnetic devices. But I wanted them to fit into the contemporary world as though they could possibly truly exist. I like to take life experiences, and people, and put a paranormal twist to them. I might hear a word or phrase that triggers something in my brain and I run with it. My family loves to give me ideas, though I don’t use very many. My Dream Weavers are able to lift  memoryprints off of objects much like forensics lifts fingerprints. That idea came from my son Josiah.
 
3)    What sets “Dream Weaver” apart from other books in the genre?
No vampires. No werewolves. No zombies. I consider myself fairly well-read in YA fiction. I wanted my immortals to be different from anything I’d read before. So that’s what I set out to do. Now, I have no issues with reading about vampires, werewolves and zombies. As a matter of fact, I’m on a bit of a zombie kick right now. I’m reading ‘Rot & Ruin’ by Jonathan Maberry and recently finished Angela Scott’s ‘Wanted: Dead or Undead.’ I just wanted to create something that I hadn’t seen done yet.
 
4)    As an author, Su what is your writing process?
I love this question. I’m what I call a ‘puker.’ Sorry, I know, nasty. I tend to come up with a scene and just throw it up on the computer…or receipt slip or post-it note. Then, I tie all the scenes together. That may not seem logical, but it’s a bit of fun for me. I may think the story is going to go one way based on one scene, only to find out, the scene goes somewhere else and the story is taking me in a different direction.
 
5)    How long did it take you to start and finish “Dream Weaver”?
I’m a little embarrassed to admit this…but Dream Weaver took me five years to write. I pitched the 62k word manuscript four years ago at the PNWA conference here in Washington (the state) and got 3 requests for partials. Looking back, I can’t believe I thought the story was anywhere near being ready for anyone’s eyes. The novel launched to 104k words and I pitched it again and got more partial and full requests, but it still wasn’t ready. So over those five years, I gleaned all I could about writing: how to ‘show don’t tell’; using active verbs; cutting the flab. I’m glad I have all this knowledge now to share with other indie authors that might not be able to make it to a writer’s conference . And I’ll have all that knowledge already as continue my story through the next two books.
 
6)    Do you have any advice for other writers?
Edit. Edit. Edit. I’ve seen so many self-published writers that haven’t. It’s obvious they have story telling chops, they just haven’t done the whole job. The biggest thing a writer can do is ask themselves ‘am I telling a story here or am I showing it?’ Anton Chekhov said, Don’t tell me the moon is shining; show me the glint of light on broken glass. Huge difference.
 
I’ve read several times that the two things self-published authors should pay for are a good editor (and not your high school English teacher) and cover art. And I agree whole-heartedly. You need a second, educated set of eyes on your manuscript to ask you the pressing questions. And you need a cover that stands out among covers and looks professionally done, because, as we know, the cover can sell your book. The story about my cover art for Dream Weaver can be found here.
 
7)    What’s next for Su Williams, the author?
Rock Star has been in the works for a couple of years. It’s the second book in the Dream Weaver trilogy. I hope to release it by the end of 2013.The research for it so far has been a blast! I got to interview band members of the all-girl AC/DC tribute band, Hell’s Belles. Such a great group of ladies.
 
Also, I’ve discovered I enjoy connecting and working with indie authors and encouraging them to be the best they can be, or reviewing a manuscript for them. I’ll be continuing my blog Dream Weaver Novels/Tyro Writer and conducting indie author and best-selling/award-winning author interviews; and connecting authors with info and giving them one more outlet where people can find their books.
 
8)    Who are your favorite authors and why?
I LOVE vivid, original imagery. I love it when writing is beautiful and poetic and heart-wrenching. The authors that I believe do this for me are Lisa McMannMaggie Stiefvater,Annette Curtis Klaus and Richelle Mead.
 
9)    If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live and why?
I can’t imagine living anywhere without my Mom and Dad. And since they aren’t going anywhere but here in good ole Spokane, WA, that’s where I’ll be. That may sound strange to some…I’m no spring chicken…but in the last several years I’ve realized how precious and awesome my parents are and just can’t imagine going somewhere they aren’t.
 
10)           What’s your favorite hobby besides writing?
I absolutely love to take pictures. I have over 3000 shots I’ve taken over the years, most of which suck. But as I’ve learned how to use my camera, my shots have gotten better. I even got one picture published in a book called ‘Red Dog/Blue Dog; When Pooches Get Political’ by Chuck Sambuchino. And I love to take shots of normal objects from abnormal angles. I’ve gotten some pretty cool pics that way.
 
Thank you, Lisa for allowing me to visit on your blog on this crazy ride they call a book blog tour.
 

Now, take a few minutes and check out an excerpt from “Dream Weaver”!

Dream Weaver cover cropped final“Dream Weaver”
By Su Williams

Prologue

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Incorporeal I drift, camouflaged against the shimmering snow, no more than a sparkling flurry in the wind, dancing just on the precipice of light shielding me from her–and them. I am her aegis, her defense from the darkness that presses in on her from without, evil cloaked from her eyes. I feel her inner darkness’ pull on her; hear it call her name.
Vivid images whose birth I cannot fathom–whether from within her heart, or tailored for her torment–still, after all these months accost her sleep and crush her soul. Yet, her screams tear the night and my heart less often than before. Surely, she is strong enough to endure some terror; no lifetime is without it. Such a gentle soul so tethered and weighted by so much loss, so much grief. I have mended what I can of her damaged mind without wholly purging her memories. At least I can dull her pain, callous her tender heart.
I know the unwritten code: ‘There are mortals, and there are immortals, and never the twain shall meet.’ Still, I find myself here, hovering on the fringe of the woods just outside the halo of light that wreathes her home. And they haunt the darkness, hidden within the shadows. I sense them, though not how near. I shudder at the consequences if they discover my presence. They would kill her, or at the very least brutalize her–just because they are able, just for my torment, the fresh nightmare of her torture a delicacy on their lips as they devour my memory.
They are changing, such aberrant evolutions we have found in their kind of late. Creatures so like us, spoken from the same heavenly breath, yet worlds apart. Their sustenance makes them monsters, even evil. They grow stronger pillaging the gifts of our kind and using them as their own and leave us worse than dead. For this cause, I feel powerless, mortal.
She knows nothing of my world, few mortals do, and it is only because of a promise and her safety that I enter hers. I vowed to protect her at any cost, with my life if necessary. And something of her draws me in, her heart to mine. It wakens an ache, a passion that long ago I laid to rest, deep beneath the sodden earth, entombed in company of my mortal life.
My heart aches with indecision. Should I go to her, risk her life perhaps to save it, or leave her be to strengthen from the terror?

CHAPTER 1 Going Under

Night terrors stalk my sleep and haunt me through each day. I am never free. Macabre phantoms, twisted metal, flames and the sound of my parent’s screams, their cries for salvation. And I would give it–if I could, were the realm in which I live and the terrors in which they died equal.
In time, my gasps for air and life abated. I learned to live without the press of suffocation on my lungs. At the least I was treading water with some hope of survival. But monsters strike even in the shallows, even when you’re feet from shore and almost standing on solid ground.
The subtle bumps of a predator, like a shark in the deep, reawakened the terrors. And I lived in fear of the jaws ripping through me and dragging me under, lost again to the darkness of terror. The darkness that has nothing to do with light or sleep.
I am Emari Sweet, sole survivor of a crash I was never in. The crash that claimed the lives of my beloved parents Zecharias and Jane Sweet. The crash that left me orphaned at 17. The crash I foresaw in the eyes of the State Trooper before the words formed on his tongue. Cold and hard, the words turned my
blood to hardened steel and eviscerated me. My soul twisted and shredded.
I lived with the terrors for many weeks after that. My best girl, Ivy, kept my body functioning, the basics for sustenance of life. She kept me Earthbound and alive when I’d rather have been neither. She guided me through an icy summer that tumbled into autumn like the leaves off a tree.
Adrian Rovnikov, my father’s best friend, my shrink since the crash, brought me drugs–antidepressants. But they are only safe in the right hands. In mine, they are death. So, before I caused irreparable harm, the pills went the way of dead fish.
Dreams of an angel with eyes of obsidian wound their way through the darkness until they finally displaced the terrors. His gentle hand calmed my writhing body, drew out the poison of the chimera, and guided me back to life. The dark-eyed angel faded as my darkness dawned into light. Yet, even when the terrors diminished, the torment hovered nearby, stalking my sanity, prepared to strike at any show of weakness.
Winter’s chill cast a mantle of white over Spokane. Trees wore shimmering nacreous cloaks that rivaled the grandeur of their summer dress greens and fall’s autumnal oranges, reds and yellows. The city lay calm and peaceful under winter’s frigid embrace and my heart still ached under the frost of grief. I hid it from all but the most discerning eyes.
The tumble of seasons brought more than cold; the real monster lurked in dark corners and phoned me at work, promised me pain and fear.
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Daylight masquerades as dusk, the clouds heavy-laden with snow. An arctic blast extends its arm, balling its fist to bludgeon the car from the road. Brake lights flash a glaring red. The tires whir and whine on the frozen asphalt seeking elusive purchase. The wind flings the car across three frosted lanes. Panic twists my father’s face as the car fishtails out of control. His frantic hands, hands that can do anything, build anything, grapple uselessly at the wheel. My mother’s face is fear-white, her mouth a perfect ‘o’ that disappears beneath her small, stark hand. A wall of white emerges out of the flurry before the windshield, but not of snow. Cement. Massive and merciless. The shiny new sedan plows into the bridge abutment, lifting Mom’s side of the car into flight. Giant sparkling snowflakes of shattering glass fly into the air as the car rolls over and over. Metal screams and moans in protest. Finally settling on its top, the car slides across the icy black tarmac, a path of broken scattered pieces in its wake.
Upside down, my mother’s pallid face appears at her window. Violent crimson drenches her hair, a severe contrast against her spectral skin. Her dazzling emerald green eyes, my own eyes staring back at me, implore for my help. Pounding hysterically, her knuckles split and bleed, smearing the window in a web of red. The roar of fire drowns her cries, flames that now return the light to the day, and vanquish the masquerade.
Driven by panic, I plunge through the whirling eddies of snow. But I can’t get to them. I have no traction, my steps falter. I am prisoner to the freezing storm, powerless to save them; held at bay by the fireball that lights the grey gauzy day cotton-bright like summer, and sends seismic shockwaves that undulate the ground beneath me. Shrapnel of rocks and glass rain down upon me.
Exhausted and useless, I collapse to my knees on the caustic, sub-zero ice. The acrid smell of smoke and gasoline grows heavy in the air, searing my throat and nostrils. Like a pin-hole camera, the light etches the panic and fear on my mother’s face onto my retinas and deep into my brain. The blaze scorches my eyes, bringing my tears to a boil. Searing heat and the horror of looking into the faces of my mother and father as the flames devour them forces me to look away. My body finally crumbles onto the cold freeway, in exhausted agony. I crush my ears with my hands to block out the maelstrom. Their haunting screams reverberate in my ears, echoes of the torment resounding throughout my body.
The reality of my own screams awoke me. I bolted upright and clutched my head. My body trembled and rocked, soaked in sweat, as I manically searched for a thread of truth. My breath rasped from my raw lungs that thrashed against the smoke-that-wasn’t.
Comforting gazes from my black and white movie monsters centered my thoughts. Bela Legosi, both Lon Chaneys, Boris Karloff and even Vlad Dracul himself, with his large round piercing eyes, crowded the walls of my black and white bedroom. Vlad was the only true monster there, but somehow I found a strange compassion for the man, given his tortured history. My glossy companions brought my heart an odd comfort.
* * *
Ninety minutes later, I sat in Adrian’s office and debated with myself just how much to tell him. I didn’t need the ‘Emari, you should come stay with us’ lecture again. I’d proved to the Spokane Courts that I was capable in every way to be considered an adult, and was granted emancipation.
“Nightmares again?” Adrian asked.
“Ya think?” I wasn’t being disrespectful. We were just beyond fluff and formality.
“Any idea what the stress trigger is this time?”
“Um…” I squirmed against the soft red leather of his couch. “There’s this guy…”
A small conspiratorial smile crept onto Adrian’s face while I paused, contemplating.
“Uh, no. I mean a bad guy. He’s calling me. At work. Like phone stalking me.” I hated admitting even this little bit to him, but most of the time his psycho-babble really did help.
Adrian leaned across the desk. His eyes narrowed and deep canyons grooved his forehead. “And just what is being done to stop him?”
Great! Just what I need. ‘Protective-daddy’ mode.
“It’s all good.” I waved him down. “My friend, Jesse, escorts me to and from my car every day and Collin keeps one of the Loss Prevention guys in the department as much as he can.” Despite playing it off as no big deal to Adrian, a cold uneasiness squirmed through me like night crawlers.
“Is he only calling you at work?” The Doc was in full-on interrogation mode now.
“Yes. Only at work. But it’s weird. It’s like he’s watching me but the LP guys never find anyone.”
“Tell me you’ve called the police.”
“Sure, sure. Nothing the cops can do unless the guy actually kills me or something, though.”
Adrian sat back in his chair with a harrumph of frustration, the ‘daddy-look’ still plastered on his face. “Emari…”
“Adrian. Don’t even start.”
“Then why are you here?” he retorted.
“The night terrors? You’re supposed to say a bunch of ‘shrinky’ kinds of things to make me feel better.”
So he did. And when he was done, he walked me to the door. He gave me the usual ‘be careful’ and ‘buckle up for safety’ speech; something he and Dad must’ve gone to school together to learn.
Then he gave me his best fatherly hug. I had to admit, his arms truly did feel like the safest place in the world.
“See you for Thanksgiving?” he asked.
“Sure, Uncle Adrian. Kiss Celeste and the kids for me.” He wasn’t really my uncle. Just my father’s closest friend in the world.
“Of course. See you then, Emari.”
“See ya.”
I shambled into work after my meeting with Adrian. Ivy saw me for the zombie I was, so in contrast to her perky pixiness. Her ornery smile wavered as I drew nearer but she reined it in. She’d given up months ago with the ‘you look like hell’ comments. Visine and Covergirl couldn’t wreak miracles that big. She opened her arms and I stepped inside.
“You okay?” she whispered.
I stepped out of her embrace. “Sure, sure,” I said with a grin, and a quote from one of our favorite books. The marbled blue of her eyes softened into limpid pools, so vast any guy could swim in them. I tucked a wisp of her soft brown hair behind her ear. “Let’s get to work.”
She pinched my arm playfully as she released me. “Collin’s got LP scheduled in an hour, but Blake came early, off the clock,” she informed me as we sorted children’s clothing to reshelf. “Jess’s gonna be pissed you didn’t wait for him.”
Jesse DeLaRosa was the closest thing to a real life Prince Charming in my world. He was instantly likeable, flirtatious in the sweetest way, easy at being a fast friend, faultlessly kindhearted. His ingenuous smile lit up any room, a constant feature that graced his lightly bronzed face. He sang or whistled while he worked, no matter how mundane or dirty the job, a lingering accent, from his days as a child in Puerto Rico colored his speech. He was a couple of years older than Ivy and me, but he clicked with our dorkiness and we’d become best friends. He’d taken it upon himself to be my daily escort–even on his days off.
“He’ll get over it,” I told her, but inwardly I hoped he wasn’t too mad at me.
Every time the phone rang, it jangled our nerves. Ivy’s hand lashed out with the speed of a viper to
protect me from innocuous callers.
“You can’t field all of the calls, Ives,” I said after the fourth call.
“I can try,” she replied with a smug half smile.
The stalker wouldn’t call with Ivy present, and we both knew it. He would wait until she went on break, as though he had a bird’s nest in the middle of the department. He wanted me alone, separated from the pack, vulnerable.
Ivy reluctantly took her break and Blake haunted the racks. Despite my anticipation, adrenalin shot through me like an ice river and my heart banged against my ribcage when the phone rang. I watched Ivy’s shadow disappear from sight as I reached a quivering hand to the phone.
“Children’s Department,” I choked out. Collin instructed us not to give our names until this ‘situation’ was resolved.
“I see you,” the voice purred gruffly. I envisioned a lion crouched in tall grass. Rigid, poised for attack. His words were soft and succinct, as though masking something from me, but the smooth lacquered surface didn’t camouflage the menace that roiled underneath–like the delicate crust of cooled lava veiling the molten lake beneath.
Blake’s eyes locked on my face as he lurched away from a rack of boy’s jeans. They followed the silent nod of my head. The muscles of his line-backer physique hardened as he prowled the department.
“I’m sorry. What was that?” I delayed. My voice quivered with anger, to my dismay. I wasn’t scared. I was pissed. But I knew he would read it as fear–just what he wanted.
“Your rent-a-cop won’t catch me.” The lion’s throaty warning growl. His voice turned acerbic, his need to induce fear sparked electrically through the phone. “Nah. He’s not even a rent-a-cop. Not even a pathetic mall cop. Just some punk kid they hired to baby-sit the store.”
Baby-sit? Either this guy’s full of crap or he’s freakin’ huge. I was betting on full of crap.
He chortled at my unease, and I heard something familiar but untouchable in his voice. Like I knew him from somewhere–and that pissed me off even more. “What the hell do you want?” I demanded.
“Just you,” he said slowly. He sniggered again with a ghoulish glee and the line went dead.
“Damn it!” I slammed the phone down and turned with a start. A customer, a woman with a little boy about five glared at me with righteous indignation. “Oh. I’m so sorry. I just…it was…there was this guy.”
She harrumphed and stormed away, towing the boy in her sanctimonious wake. No doubt to complain to my manager.
So. Let her.
Blake shuffled up to the quad, what we associates at Cash’s Department Store called our customer service desks. “Sorry, Em. No luck.” He looked every bit the defeated athlete, his hands stuffed into his jeans pockets making his shoulders and arms bulge.
“It’s all good. He’ll get bored eventually and go away.” I hope.

Chapter 2 Haunted

I was prophetic, if not pathetic. The calls ceased and my stalker fell silent, not so much as a heavy breather. Perhaps he’d moved on to some other prey. Poor girl. Everyone around me breathed easier. But a specter of black ice lingered under the surface, chilled me to my core. Deep down I felt a dark and malevolent storm brewing. I wondered if I’d manage to survive it unscathed or if my entire world would shatter with the velocity of its fury.
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Review of “Wednesday Wars”

Hello everyone! I hope all is well with you!  I’ve had a very busy month with quite a few workshops and personal appearances. It has been a lot of fun!  However, I needed to de-stress so I decided to read a book!

The book I chose to read was “Wednesday Wars” by Gary Schmidt.  It won the Newberry Honor Award and I must say it certainly deserved it.

Here’s a little bit about the book.

In this Newbery Honor-winning novel, Gary D. Schmidt offers an unforgettable antihero. THE WEDNESDAY WARS is a wonderfully witty and compelling story about a teenage boy’s mishaps and adventures over the course of the 1967–68 school year.

Meet Holling Hoodhood, a seventh-grader at Camillo Junior High, who must spend Wednesday afternoons with his teacher, Mrs. Baker, while the rest of the class has religious instruction. Mrs. Baker doesn’t like Holling—he’s sure of it. Why else would she make him read the plays of William Shakespeare outside class? But everyone has bigger things to worry about, like Vietnam. His father wants Holling and his sister to be on their best behavior: the success of his business depends on it. But how can Holling stay out of trouble when he has so much to contend with? A bully demanding cream puffs; angry rats; and a baseball hero signing autographs the very same night Holling has to appear in a play in yellow tights! As fate sneaks up on him again and again, Holling finds Motivation—the Big M—in the most unexpected places and musters up the courage to embrace his destiny, in spite of himself.

My thoughts:

I loved this story! I loved how Mr. Schmidt brought the characters to life. I must say that my favorite was Holling Hoodhood’s teacher. It was amazing how she challenged Holling every step of the way to learn more, to strive for more, and to ultimately reach his potential. I think every kid would love to have a teacher like that, someone to believe in you when your own parents don’t have the time.

That’s one thing that bothered me about the story. The only reason it bothered me is because it’s an accurate portrayal of many family situations. Parents get so caught up in putting food on the table that they forget to provide the emotional support that their children need.

This is an amazing story of a young seventh grader who suffers the trials and tribulations of Jr. High. He finds support in an unlikely ally…his teacher.  I would strongly recommend that young boys read this story. I know I’m going to recommend it to my sons when they’re old enough. I will definitely be reading more of Mr. Schmidt’s books. :)

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